Friday, October 21, 2005

Children will listen....

this fall season, do your civic duty and keep Halloween away from me and steinhart:


whoistyler: i wanna be a jedi!
RainbowR21: all the kids want to be a jedi
whoistyler: nuh uh!
RainbowR21: you're gonna be an M&M this year
whoistyler: nooooo
RainbowR21: do you want to stay home on halloween young man?
whoistyler: maybe!
RainbowR21: don't back talk me! I'll throw my glass of gin in your face
whoistyler: ill call the fuzz!
RainbowR21: i'm sending you to live with your father! you were a mistake!
whoistyler: whatever! he's got a bigger TV anyway!
RainbowR21: Fine! go upstairs and pack your stuff!
whoistyler: fine i'm gone!
RainbowR21: im sure him and his little slut girlfriend kimberly will let u be a Jedi, that is if they aren't too high to notice you're even there!
whoistyler: yeah, well at least he lets me smoke it with him!
RainbowR21: great, get high and then you can be unemployed in a trailer park someday, JUST LIKE YOUR DEADBEAT FATHER!
whoistyler: MAYBE I WILL
RainbowR21: Im going to start the car, you better be down here in five minutes, or im going to give the rest of your stuff away to kids who really deserve it
whoistyler: whatever...kimberly is right...you are a whore!
RainbowR21: that little slut talked shit about me? Well, you are not living over there. I don't want that bich talking about me to my kid.
whoistyler: you're so drunk you can't even say bitch right!
RainbowR21: I'm not drunk, u little shit. This is only my third glass!
whoistyler: yeah...in the past 20 minutes!
RainbowR21: thaaaaths not a lot
RainbowR21: now come hold mommy's hair back, i have to throw up
whoistyler: and scene
whoistyler: it should be a show
RainbowR21: it probably is...in suburban household living rooms all over the nation

Monday, October 03, 2005

Can't believe how strange it is to be anything at all...

Hello October,
and hello unloved blog. I've been so busy lately that I didnt even think to write in this thing. The eternal struggle between living life and writing about it. The former always wins. I've been working a lot on the campaign, and with a month to go I can't wait to see it end. I'm totally exhausted, but my bosses really don't get that Im a student as well as their bitch. 24 hours a week is really unmanageable. I'm getting to be really pathetic when the highlight of my week is getting to sleep til 9 on thursdays. Woot. Come on November 8th, dont keep me waiting.
Classes are ok, to be honest I hardly know whats happening in them. I'm keeping up, i think, i feel a little overwhelmed in my graduate course, just because I don't feel as smart as the rest of the people in it, and I'm not. They are pretty much all going for their 2nd or 3rd masters degrees, and im still undergrad. I need to read more closely I think...ive never thought so critically before and Im just not used to it.
Showgirls Movie Night was yesterday. It once again proves itself as being awesomely bad, as it was a big hit. You really just can't beat it.
The only think that has bothered me lately is my overwhelming feeling of nothing. Im not amazingly happy or terribly sad. I just am. And i don't much care for it. I have no one to crush on, which shouldnt seem like a big deal, but to have the thought of a person, even if its only a thought, makes me cheerful. To see them or think about seeing them or talk to them usually makes my day. And I don't have that at all right now. I should really be used to this by now. Not that I should be complaining at all. I have so many things that others don't have, but id really like to feel some sort of anything. Blah to me and my whining. Moving on..
Besides being so busy I can't breathe, I love being at school. I push all thoughts of leaving to the back of my mind. I don't know where I'm going after this, but I'm sure it's gonna be ok no matter what. I have faith in something, though its definition is not clear.

Keep it real, yo

btw- my counter got cleared..that sucks